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the prayer


Dear Heavenly Father,
How can this sound sincere unlike the prayers I have tried to say, they did not seem my spirit was in them. Please forgive me for my presumption and my complacency, oh should there be another word that means more than that, I would confess it, for I am a worm. I see so much the error and the more I see it the more I do it, I am the sheep that has gone astray I have turned everyone to their own way and Lord, I am helpless, I am weak.  I remember your promise of ‘rest’ that your burden is light and your yoke is easy. I have squandered in my own selfishness and I am disgusted with myself, but I am a sinful person, I am a sinner and I want to be revived from this stupor that I am in.  Let me not delight in indifference Father, cause me to be who you want me to be, to go and do what you want me to do, to love who you want me to love, to care for those who you want me to care for, to forgive all.  Such warring of my soul I cannot bear, the tug of the spirit, how my heart longs to be at peace with You. I am sorrowful and yet the voices vex me, they say I am ok, they say your feelings are just deceiving you. Only You know my heart, you can see the coldness and the hardness, the void of Spirit, You can see me, my frailties and disease.  Ignite my faith to believe in your promises Father, to “search my heart and see if there be any wicked way in me and lead in the way everlasting” for You do not withhold anything good or your spirit.  In Jesus’ name I pray this to you, I cry this out to you……amen.

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