The Healing Diaries

The clock began a promising venture With hopes of smooth steps to fill Though there arose obscure events Tugging at my desire to unleash fleshy responses I failed to contain and withhold And forgot my stance as one dead and buried Though i decided to rise again Collecting guilt and shame Only to be at my bed with regret Asking for a clearing away Pleading to be someone who isnt who She was today

My mind asks of words To give to you as a prayer you will accept How i am still in the realm of sluggish clouds Awaken me to live Awaken my heart to praise And rejoice Even when feelings a plague of doubts Come to deceive You are still the same And i will thank you for Being my God Who loves me even in this way

The same time, a new day... And i begin like everyday; I wonder and fret over the affairs That have not yet lived. But it is me who sits here, Who lives and needs Who looks up toward heaven And longs for the heart of God. Yesterday has been The ten minutes upon waking has been So now it begins again and i am Aware of my frailty I am aware of who i am A creation of my Creator A daughter of my Father A servant of my King A sinner before her Savior

My soul wrestles again To grasp you How my thoughts share their Discourse and i am like From the beginning Frail And breakable My steps waver like in a dance To and fro i regress and move forward I will not dictate your power upon me But with thy Grace accept the battle Help me bear The struggle to leap over this wall With thy hand Never let me let go